I miss being a child.

I realized being 20 years old...


I no longer play in the drain,

my parents cupboard is too small for my body to hide,

I switch channel when the TV is showing cartoon,

my school bag is become lighter and lighter,

I spend more time looking in the mirror,

I don't cry out loud, I cry silently,

I don't forgive people easily,

I always make parents unhappy...


It wasn't too long ago when I was little. Just like the school kids in my school.

Being their teacher, I don't just teach; I take the opportunity to watch them too.

They makes me reminisce about my childhood...

where I was so happy that I smile and laugh from within, where I was care-free that I fall asleep once I lay on the bed, where I forget everything sad once I wake up the next morning, where I can make mistakes and not feeling guilty... just like them.


Now,I couldn't just smile without feeling bitter in the inside,

couldn't sleep without wearing out my body first,

couldn't wake up without nightmares still haunting me,

couldn't stop blaming myself for the mistake that I made...


I miss those days when I was a child...